Zissy's Zoo

just couldn't sleep any longer and i wanted to take a shower for some reason. must of been something i was dreaming about but i had this wanted need to take a bloody shower at this ungodly hour and i had taken one before i went to bed at around 1am. bleah

today is suppose to be one of the hottest days of the summer and is to feel like 105. i don't know about the rest of you but i'm ready for this summer to take a leap in the ocean. of course i don't want it to be freezing with snow up to my waist but i would like it around the 70's but that's just crazy talk.

i haven't heard from benjamin lately so that means his life must be going along pretty good because he usually only calls me when he's frantic. i know he wants out of his dead end job as he calls it at hollywood video and he wants to start school so i'm sure he's keeping busy with all of that.

i have an unscheduled appt. today at 10:30.........sounds weird to call it that but that is what the doc said. tomorrow is the big day for me when i find out the results of my bone and ct scans. i just wish they would call with the results so i don't sit around here fretting and going crazier than i already am. that's probably why i can't sleep but the dreams or nightmares have nothing to do with my results one way or the other. i could go months without a single one and then these last few weeks have been terror on my psyche.